As final as death

As I lay on the shore, gazing at the setting sun,
I think about the shocking way
My life has taken an abrupt turn.
For the one I lost was the one I loved the most,
The essence of my life,
The one who would never return.
The world around me is back to its full pace,
As if there is nothing amiss,
I ask then why there is in me this inexplicable abyss.
My soul feels ripped from the depths of my core,
Yet, the waves mockingly sing, lashing at the shore.
A smile here, a tiff there,
The memories come rushing back to me,
Beyond this grief, beyond this despair,
I cannot convince my mind to see,
What happens now, what happens next
Is all still a dazed haze to me.
But life cannot freeze; I have to move on,
Carrying with me all the shattered pieces
And bitter-sweet memories along.
A single tear escapes my eye,
As a new spate of grief washes over me in stealth,
I know now that in this gamble of life,
No hand dealt to us…is as final as death.